5 Risks

The other day me and some of my friends were having a Girly day and just doing a bunch of fun stuff. And someone mentioned that statistically women only make 5 major risks in their life. And that got me thinking that I've been playing it safe my whole life.

I'm very structured and OCD. I like to have things in alphabetical order, organized, set up weeks in advance, and have multiple options for even the smallest plans.

Basically I'm an old lady in a 19 year old woman's body.

While I don't see myself running off and getting married, piercing any random body parts, or packing up and fleeing the country any time soon, it got me thinking that I need to let my hair down more.

Every plan that I have, whether it be about travel, tattoos, school, my future, or even plans for the following weekend- everything is planned out and have been decided with many pro and con lists. 

I can't ever just up and go with something. I have to have things packed, phone numbers and dates written down, and make sure everything is set and ready. 

So my plan from now on is to just do.

Just do what feels right.

Just do something unexpected.

Just do something that I've been dreaming of doing for years, but I've put off because it's not practical.

I mean hell! The crazies thing I've done recently is dye my hair! While it was a great decision, I had to sit and think about the pros and cons of it. If I got a summer job, would they like it? How much would my dad hate it? How much would my mom love it? Will it look horrible on me? 

And that was just hair, people!

So from now on, if someone says "Hey, lets go to Corvallis. Never mind the fact that it's 10:30 at night and we're low on gas!" You'd best believe that I'll be in that car right beside them! If someone suggest going to the mall and buying the most random thing ever, I'm not going to sit and think about how I should be saving the money, I'll just think of where in my room it's going to go. 

While I don't think I'll change drastically, I think I'm going to take this 5 risk thing into consideration this summer and have fun. I'm almost 20, and the most crazy thing I've done is go to Japan for a month by myself. And I've learned SO much from that trip, about me, about the culture, and about how I'll be when I'm older dealing with situations bigger than high school.

Just, don't expect toooooo much from me quite yet. lol.