GAIZ GAIZ GAIZ!!!

SFJLKDAJFKLDSJAF;LKJDSLKJHSDLAK!!!!!!!!!

I found my Purikura from Japan!!!!

Purikura is basically a way cooler version of the photobooths ya'll find in malls and what not. 

BUT THEY'RE SO DAMN CUTTTEEE!!!!

 

These aren't all the ones I have. lol. But they're sooo cute! I finally figured out how to put them on the computer tooooooo~ <3

BAAAH! I miss Japan!!! <3 <3 <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders!

Tattoos!

So, many of you know- I'm obsessed with tattoo's! I might not get 83274983 of them, but I'm always admiring peoples tattoos. It's their way of expressing to the world who they are, where they've been, and their views on life. I hate when people say that tattoo's are stupid.

That's basically saying how they feel about things, or how they've overcome certain situations is stupid.

Kind of like a backhand to the face! >.<

Yes, some tattoo's are stupid ideas, or in a place that's not very professional- but it's theirs.

I only have a small little tattoo on my left ankle. I got it like 3 days after my 18th birthday. lol. I love it, it's small and cute and simple.

 However, I really really really want more! I have a few ideas in my head.

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One, on my left shoulder blade (behind my heart) I want the words "Brother & Sister" in a circle of different languages saying "Forever". Because I love my brother. Even though he's a butt-head and we're sort of fighting right now. Grrr. But that's going to wait a little longer till I decide to get that one or no.

Also, I really want this.

 It would obviously look different. This was just done with Paint. xD I love the clock not having hands. Feels like time doesn't exist. Which is exactly what Peter symbolizes. lol. And I might switch up the stars, and the thimble and acorn won't be on there anymore. I just loooove this concept. (as I've said if you guys have read my blog about my favorite quotes. lol. I want that on my right shoulder

blade. lol

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And last but not least, my top two for my possible next tattoo's~ <3

This spring break I'm going down to Cali to visit my mom. :D And since me and her had an interesting relationship while I grew up, I think this would be a great way for us to bond and have something permanent so that no matter what fights we get in or whatever, we'll both have this thing on our skin to remember that we still love each other, and have many of the same views.

Although, for the dot on the I, I think I want a different Wicca symbol. Because I know the difference between a Satanic star and a Wicca star, but not everyone else does. It sort of looks like this

)O(

And then!!! This one, which I really really really really really really want! The quote "  While we may come from different places and speak in different tongues, our hearts beat as one"    from Harry Potter~ <3 Although, I'm a little stressed out to get it, because I don't want to be one of "those" people with stupid Harry Potter tattoos. D:

I want it right here~

Uggggg!!!

But my dad will kill me if I get more tattoo's. He thinks they're the stupidest things ever. >.< Ug.

But yes! Those are my ideas. Hmm...you guys have any ideas for cool tattoos that ya'll want? Or any advice for mine? I'm open for any~ <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders!

Well...

Well, for anyone who was just curious. lol.

I have had....:

-345 from America

-21 from Canada

-3 from Japan

-1 from Malaysia 

-1 from Norway

....reading my blog. 

For the record, I don't know anyone from Canada, or Malaysia. Hahhahah.

Glad I can entertain people! :D Keep on checkin' in~

Also, for some random reason, my very first blog about who I am is the most popular with 48 page views. <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders!

P.S. Where the heck is Malaysia anyway? Hahhahaah

Friends Far and Wide

Today I'm going to sound very "little kid feeling like a grown-up"  lol.

However, I think one of the most amazing things that I've ever experienced is having international friends. It's a positively lovely experience! Because it's one way to see how the culture really is- especially from a teenager's point of view! 

And, of course, anyone who knows me, knows that I am pretty pro at traveling. lol. I'm no longer afraid! :D (Shut up, mother. I know you're going to say I still am.) And anytime someone says they're going to travel out of country, I'm the first one to tell them that it's the best decision ever!!!!

My first time ever traveling out of the country, I was in 8th grade, and I went to Mexico with my friend and her family. That was alright, but we stayed in a really fancy place near the touristy areas. Plus, I was so young, and I didn't take advantage of it as much as I would have liked.

My second time traveling was much more exciting!!! Summer of 2009, I went to...

BADADADADADADDADADADA!!!! *Drum Roll*.....

JAPAN!!!!

I've already gone on about how much fun that trip was, that's in one of my earlier blogs. lol. So I wont repeat it. But, I had the chance to make dozens of new friends! And although I don't keep in contact with all of them- just knowing that if I emailed them and said that I was coming back, I'd have tons of people to hang out with! It's an amazing feeling seeing a post card from another country!!

My 3rd experience traveling was a little less...planned out. xD For anyone who knows my dad, knows that when he gets an idea to go somewhere, or do something, he doesn't always think it out. So, about 3 weeks after me getting back from Japan, my dad informed me that we were going to Canada. Hahahaha. 

So, I stopped unpacking, threw in some warmer clothes and re-charged my camera battery, cuz baby- we were out of there!

That trip was surprisingly fun! Even though when we got off the ferry from America, they stopped us and asked us where/when/how long we were  going/staying- and my dad had no answer. He didn't even know what hotel we were staying in- IF we were staying in a hotel. 

Again, my dad's kind of...eccentric when it comes to trips. But it was still fun. lol. We got a cheep little motel, and we were off exploring. We got to go Whale-watching, we went to tons of museums, we saw the Queens building or something? I don't remember, it was all so rushed. 

But all-in all, Canada was amazing. Even though we were there for 3 days...ug.

But yes! Enough about ranting about my traveling- my friends from other countries! 

I have tons from Japan. lol. Ayako, Megumi, Eriko, Erika, Kasumi, Maho, Momoko, Risa, Noriko, Miwa, and Ai! lol. I'm sure there are more, I just can't remember everyone. D:

Then, I have Ingaborg, from Norway!

Kerstin from Germany!

And Bruna from Brazil! 

But what got me going on this blog was that last night my friend Bruna told me that she was back in Gladstone!!! So, of course, since I was back from school that weekend, we had to hang out! And I found out that I wasn't just running into her, but I was also meeting her sister Juliane! 

It was super fun! We all sat and had coffee for a few hours. lol. Then we went to the house that the two girls were staying at and just laughed and compared countries and cars and boys and food and EVERYTHING.

Either way, last night was awesome. And I highly recommend friends from other countries. (:

Well, I guess I could have just said that last sentence and saved you all from reading about my boring life. Blah, oh well! Thanks for reading anyway! xD

Peace, love and follow the spiders~ <3

That lovely thing called Parents

A few weeks ago, when I was really really upset about school and my so called "friends" back home, I tried to keep it to myself. That's just how I am- a suffer in silence type of person. But, my parents are stupid. They both (yes, even my clueless father. lol) knew something was wrong. 

And it makes me really grateful that even though I put on my "I'm tough and don't need anyone's help" act, they still tell me to stop pretending, and tell them what's up. :)

And when I told them that I was really struggling with my classes, and people back in Gladstone had all decided that I was a horrible human being and should be shot-- they knew that there wasn't really anything they could do. And especially since I'm an "adult" now, I always try to deal with things more than I would in High School.

Then, unexpectedly, I got a package in the mail~ <3 And in it was candy, homemade cookies, a little stuffed lovey dovey puppy and my P!nk CD! My moms little way of showing that I'm doing the right thing. And that no matter what, I'm not forgotten~ 

And then! Today, when I was on the phone with my dad, he said that next time I'm home, he's gonna "surprise me" with a trip to the Egypt exhibit at OMSI!!! Just to make me forget my troubles! <3 <3 <3

Love my parents! Sometimes. xD

Oh, and the occasional motivational text is always helpful as well~

Peace, love, & follow the spiders!

Valentines Day

I bet you all are thinking that just because I'm writing about Valentines day, it's either going to be all lovey dovey, or all I HATE THE WORLD.

However, I'm going to write just what I feel about it~

First, let me start off with the fact that today is the official "To Write Mudblood on Her Arms" day.
We take this day to remember that all of us are equal, regardless of race, gender, sexual orientation, gender identity, age, religion, or magical ability. We write "mudblood" on our arms this day not only to remember the pain inflicted on Hermione Granger by Bellatrix Lestrange for being born to Muggles, but to acknowledge the hardships people have faced for being perceived as different.We invite Muggles and Wizards alike to join us in writing "mudblood" on our arms as a symbol to show that while we are all different, we are all equal.

Now, enough about that. lol. 

Well, first of all, I hate Valentines day because it is just another day to spend money and treat the girl/boy of your choice like the prince/princess that you think they are. When you should be showing that person love all the time. Not to mention the fact that we celebrate the mass murder of hundreds of people. Really makes me want to go buy some chocolate.

And while I do hate all that stuff. I hate the most the fact that they expect you to sweep the person off their feet with all of this stuff. When, in reality you should be showing everyone that you love them every day. That's why it's so hard for me to write heartfelt things in Valentines and hand them out. Because my favorite way to show my friends and family that I love them is by doing small little things every once and awhile. Like buying them something that I know they really want and surprising them with it. Or leaving little love notes on their dorm door and not saying who it was. I don't need just one day to tell them I love them. 

So, sorry to everyone who still hasn't gotten a valentine, because I think you should know that I love you regardless. <3

Also, the fact that I've never been in a relationship isn't bad. And I'm honestly not annoyed by it. People always ask me "Oh, well you must hate Valentines day. Since you've never had a boyfriend". Then I just give them this blank look and then when they're least expecting it- I punch them in the vagina. xDD jkjkjkjk. >.>.....

But seriously. It is true that I haven't been in a relationship ever. And it is true that I really would like to have that experience. However, I don't need a boy or a girl to make me who I am. I have TONS of friends and am pretty well liked without the help of a significant other. And asking me if it makes me sad seeing everyone so happy is just annoying. Why would I be sad seeing people happy with the one they love? I'm happy for them! As long as they don't just start procreating while I'm in the same room.

 

Because no matter  what gender they are and who they're with- it's gross either way. xP

And hearing people whine about being single is just as annoying. If you want a boyfriend/girlfriend, go out and make yourself pretty and find one. They aren't just going to magically appear in front of you and propose. This isn't Disney, people. lol

Uggggg.

But yes, my Valentines day was fun though~ Most of the single people (excluding Chuck) in my hall all dressed up and we went to Valsetz. xD The dining hall on campus. lol. It was fun. And I got lots of Valentines and we had lots of laughs! I hope next year is just as awesome! <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders~ <3

Day 8 (:

Well, just a bit of good news!!! :D

I had my Oral French test today...and...

I got a B+!!!!!

I am SOOOOOOOOOO freaking excited. I might actually do alright in this class! Things are turning around! She said I was one of the best speakers that has come in! And I understood a majority of what she said. :D There was only one question I had no idea what she asked!!! 

AHHH!!! <3

And also! In my Music of Broadway class, he said that the midterm test is only 10% of your grade AND we can do an extra credit paper that only has to be 3-5 pages long!!! EASY!! <3 <3 <3

God, I am SO thankful that things are turning around. T^T These past two weeks SUCKED, and I'm glad things are finally going well. x.x

ALSO, my mom knew I was upset, so she sent me a Valentines/Don't-Be-Sad-Anymore box! It had yummy candy and homemade cookies in it! Plus a cute stuffed valentine puppy! AND MOST OF ALL!

ILOVEPINKSOMUCHICAN'TEVENHANDLEIT!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I literally almost died when I saw this. It's got all her amazing songs. PLUS a DVD thing! I haven't watched the DVD yet, but it's still beautiful. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Alright. xD After all that excitement, lets get back to the Challenge. 

Today is "Something you're afraid of"

Well, I have this little thing called Keraunophobia. 

And just so ya'll don't have to look it up, I'll share a little information about this phobia of mine.

Nature likes to scare you- in many ways. 

The thing I'm afraid of is HUGE, shocking, unexpected, and painful! 

You can't hide from it. And when Natures decides to throw it in your face, you have to turn off your life and try to hide.

When you see pictures of it, it almost always looks fake!

Some crazy people think it's beautiful. But I, on the other hand, can't even look at a freaking picture of it without crapping myself.

And that thing is....

 

Honestly can't even handle this crap. Just looking for a picture for this damn blog was giving me shivers. UG. I hate lighting. It's disgusting, scary, terrifying, painful, and horrible.

I hate it.
I wish it didn't exist.

And people who like it are crazy.

That is all.

Eff lightning.

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. BUT AVOID THE FREAKING LIGHTNING. <3

Day 7!!

"A picture of something that makes you happy"

 Hmm...well, I can't really think of just ONE picture that makes me happy. So I'll give you my top few! :D

This was my Advanced Senior English class last year! For those of you who actually know us, know that this class was made of tons of different cliques and types of people. We didn't go into this class expecting to all be friends, or to get along, or to think the same way. 

~But, at the end of the class, we all bonded. We bonded in a way that words can't really describe. ~

~We were able to open up about the hardest things, that many of us haven't told our actual friends.~

We were able to get Mr. Nelson (The teacher known to "not have a soul") to cry! That class taught me so much about not only myself and not only about English, but about people who I've gone to school with since Kindergarten. We might not all talk anymore, but we all have a mutual respect for each others being. Literally the best class  I have ever had the honor of partaking in. <3

THESE PEOPLE RIGHT HERE!!!

I didn't know these people before coming to college, but I see some life-long friends right here. <3

Chloe, Cameron, Rachael, and Chuck. lol.

I'll never forget these people, not matter where life takes me! <3

(There's other people who have made a huge impact in my life, I just don't have epic pictures of them. 

Andy, Kara, and Mady! I love you guys too!!! <3 <3)

xD This kid to my left is my baby brother, James. He is the most important person in my life. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him, and miss him. lol. I can't ever see going on in life without him. We're two completely different people, but exactly the same at the same time.

We have a lot of the same values and views of life, but we both put a little bit of different stuff into it. <3 

We literally are each others half's. What I lack in (patience, calm, brains) he makes up for! And visa versa. (creativity, aggressiveness, cleanliness). This kid means so much to me. <3

People always make fun of how much I love him. But I can't help it. He's one of the only things in my life that I know I can always rely on. Even though I'm the older sister, he takes care of me when I just break down. 

Bah, people are bugging me to go to Lunch with them. xD You guys get the idea.

<3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. <3

Day 6

Today! :D

"Your favorite quote"

So, I have a few quotes actually. lol. But I'll choose my top two. And if anyone knows me, they'll be able to figure out what it's gonna be from. xD

HARRY POTTER

&

PETER PAN!!!

<3

My first quote is "While we may come from different places and speak in different tongues, our hearts beat as one" from Albus Dumbledore.

I LOVE this quote because it shows that no matter what a person looks like, or what they believe, or the language they speak- you can still look at them and now that you're the same, and you can relate to them. <3 I hate when people randomly decide that they hate someone based on their race or sexual orientation, or religion, or whatever the case may be. I HATE it. It's the dumbest thing ever. Especially when they don't even have any damn idea what they're talking about. At least take the chance to understand what they're all about before you make your judgment.

You just look like an ass.

I think my love with this quote comes from my love of (Harry Potter!!! <3 <3 <3) traveling and understanding EVERYTHING there is to know about other countries and cultures. <3 I love learning. I hate not knowing anything about people.

YAY HISTORY! <3

And my other quote is "All you need is faith, trust, and pixie dust" from Peter Pan.

I EFFING LOVE PETER PAN! <3

 I love this quote because  it basically says that you need to have faith- whether it be any Gods from any religion, your family, or friends. It's important to believe in something. (: 

And Trust is extremely important. You can't go through life alone, you have to trust other people. <3

And  most important! Pixie dust! I take it as never growing up too much. :D You have to know when to be an adult, but you can't be serious all the time. <3 You have to have some kid attitude in you still. <3 <3 <3

Sorry, sucky explanation. lol. But yes! <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. <3

Day 5 Image hevy. lol

The original question for dad was something about a song and your mood, but I think that's stupid. lol. 

So instead, I'm going to write about my favorite trip!!

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The summer of 2009, I had the AMAZING opportunity to go to JAPAN!!!!!!!!! for a month!!! :D It was truly one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced. ^^ 

We traveled all over Japan!!! We went to Kyoto, Miyajima, Tokyo, Hiroshima, Kumamoto, and Ogaki!!! I got to experience so much awesomeness! I got to try tons of weird foods, and see lots of new and different things! Two of the foods that I tried that stood out the most was Katsudon, and this thing I don't remember the name of. xD 

 Katsudon ^ is probably one of the most delicious things I have ever eaten in my life. It's chicken with egg and rice. :D Absolutely amazing! <3

And then, there's this thing that looks disgusting, but is positively amazing. It's a cabbage sort of pancake thing! You could either put this chicken meat thing in it or squid. I had both. It was literally one of the most amazing things I've ever eaten in my life. <3

I also got to experience festivals and what it's like to grow up in Japan.

 All the girls got to try on Kimono's! It's insane the amount of fabric that is used! I literally couldn't bend over because of the amount of layers I had on! I wouldn't ever take it back though. <3 <3 <3

 I got to make Soba!!! It was actually really hard to make. xD You had to add the right amount of ingredients, make it super flat (like what I'm doing there) and then cut it by HAND the specific width and length. Luckily, after we had suffered enough, they let us use a giant paper cutter looking thing to cut them. xD

Then we got to eat it. It was way yummier after you made it yourself~ <3

And here! This is a wish tree! I don't remember what the holiday is actually called- but it was amazing! I don't remember what I wished for, but it was really cool to be able to participate in something I had only read about in comics! And even though I couldn't read what all the other people had wrote (I suck at Kanji. lol), I think it was best that I couldn't. (: Because it was awesome to see even adults doing something that they knew wouldn't happen, but still did anyway! <3

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 And then- the week of all weeks!

I GOT TO VISIT MY BEST FRIEND EVER!

This girl right here is Ayako Sendai! She is the Asian me who lives in the other side of the world! I love her so much! She was my exchange student March of 2009, and when she found out I was going to Japan for 3 weeks, she demanded that I stay with her an extra week and go to her school. If I could have just gone to her house for that whole month, I would have! It was the best week of my entire week! <3

I miss her so much. <3

 

So, when me and my friend Amanda got to their classroom that first day of Japanese school, we found THIS! Her whole class was so excited to have us stay there and visit, that they decorated the entire blackboard!!! There's Pokemon, random Japanese words, scribbles, pictures, and random words that we had taught some of them when they visited America! It was one of the warmest welcomes I've ever seen. <3

  

 This is the whole class! <3

 Here's just some random things to make ya'll laugh. xD

Day 4

So, today's topic is "Your Parents"

This is probably about to be the most awkward and emotional update. Depending on how much I feel like saying.

My parents are two of the most opposite- yet similar people I've ever met. I was very well loved growing up, and extremely spoiled. xD They never really got along, at least not from what I remember. There was lots of fighting and yelling growing up. Which is why I'm so close with my brother James, because I'm extremely protective, and I remember him always crying when they yelled- so I'd bring him into a different room and distract him. And then, after all that awesomeness, my mom moved down into the guest room and my dad stayed in their old room. And then I think it was my....junior year that my mom moved out to California. That was fun.

But, lets get a bit more detailed about each of them. So, my dad's name is Duane. My friends really seem to like his name. xD I have NOOO idea why.

Me and him get along suuuper well. Well...that's not entirely true. xD He's really stupid sometimes, so I have to be the adult and tell him what to do. He loves to pull pranks and joke around, which is where I got that little trait. xD He's a carpenter, and a pretty good one at that. :D He's one of 5 kids (all their names start with D's. lol)  One thing I really really wish he'd do less of, is worry about work. I remember on my move-in day for college, he stopped to deal with a work call. That pissed me off. Sometimes I feel like he's too afraid to not do work, because it's the "man thing" to do. Just like he wont ask for help from anyone, or anything. It's really annoying. But I still love him-sometimes. xD He's a really good dad. Always willing to drop anything if I'm upset. I feel bad, because when I'm upset, I normally take it out on him. I just hope he knows that he knows I don't mean it. <3

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Now, the one you've all been waiting for. My mommy. <3

Not a very good picture. xD Sorry.

A lot of people know about me and my mom's problems. And for the sake of my mom, I'm not going to write about it in detail. But basically, due to this issue, my life hasn't been the best. It's certainly hasn't been as bad as it could be, but....not happy.

There was a lot of arguing between me and her, because we're both- to put it in her words- "dominant bitches" xD Neither of us wanted to admit when we were wrong, so the fights always ended in a lot of hurt feelings, harsh words and tears. A lot of it was my teenage angsty crap, but a whole lot of it was due to my mom not always being in her right mind. She had a really hard life growing up, and I don't blame her for the things she's done and said.

After she moved out (that day sucked a huge amount of suckiness), things were kind of...hard. You'd think that after having your mother move out, things wouldn't be normal. Food wouldn't be cooked, the house wouldn't be as clean. That mother feeling would be gone. But, it wasn't like that for us. Because my mom would be there physically, but mentally, it was like she was dead. So when she moved out, it didn't feel different really at all. But it was all for the best. Because after she did move out, she got the help she needed, and our relationship has been much much much MUCH better. <3 <3 <3 <3

I love my mom. <3

Well, that wasn't quite as bad as I was thinking it'd be. xD But yeah. There's us. x.x

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. <3

Day 3 and a whole bunch of ranting

Alright, since I'm sure people have been seeing me rant on facebook about how my life has been sucking- I'll just explain that right now.

Well, a few of my friends back in Gladstone have been deciding that I have been treating them bad and ignoring them, and not being a good friend. While that could be true, I think the way it was brought up was wrong and could have been better. One of them, we've been having issues for about a year now, but as far as I knew, we were on pretty good terms. Apparently not. However, she should have brought it up to me, rather than have someone who's not even involved in any way tell me how she was feeling. And taking sides-that always makes me happy. Not saying that I want them to take my side, but I want them to put aside their bias's and try and see where I'm coming from. Which is what I try to do every time someone wants to tell me how they feel. And I do my best to do that.

And I feel like every time I tried to explain why I did the things I did, and why I said the things I said- she just said that it was wrong, and that the other person didn't deserve it because her life is hard and she has hard classes. Which I understand! Hello- I was best friends with her at one point, I know how her life is hard and her study habits. However, you weren't there when we had our fights and tiff's. You weren't there when the other one cried. You weren't there to see how we handle our problems. Let us figure it out ourselves, and get your nose out of it. And then, last night a friend of mine who doesn't try to talk to me, or go to anything we plan, or try really texted me and yelled at me for not ever trying to get a hold of her! Hi, wanna try answering the phone or answering my texts, or try showing up when we plan a hang out session? Then you can tell me I don't try to be your friend. Friendship is a two way thing, I'm done trying to be both sides.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

And so, after all that drama in my life, I'm doing really really really REALLY bad in school right now and I have NO idea why it's sucking so damn bad! I'm studying, doing my homework, participating in classes, and I don't skip as much as other people- just sometimes I need to sleep or work on something for another class. But the end result to all of this is 3. BIG. FAT. F's. on my Midterms this term. Like...legit F's. I don't think I've ever gotten an F outside of Zerzan's damn classes, and my math classes. 

That's a big confidence booster, yeah? 

I literally have no idea what I can do to help me get better grades. I'm just going to hang out with people less and try and study more. This weekend is going to be dedicated to French and studying it. HELL, I'M GOING TO DREAM IN FRENCH BY SUNDAY!!! I have to pass these classes with a B. Otherwise I can't get into the RA program next year- which I really need to! Not only will it be a great experience for me, but you live and eat here for free. And I don't want dad to have to pay money for me to go to school. He has so much to pay for already.

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Okay, well I'm done ranting for now. Now for the 30 Day blog challenge.

"Your first love"

Hmm...well, honestly, my first love was a friend of mine. I wasn't expecting to like them at all, because I was so close to them and there was other variables involved (how's that for a math term? lol. Variables...). I'm not going into this too much, because I don't feel like shelling out all of this new information about myself via internet for everyone to read. But basically, it was that one very close friend of mine. And then they got a girlfriend, and I had to learn to deal with that and stay friends with them. Which sucked, but that was that. I think I told them once that I really liked them, but we had both decided for the sake of our maturity to just be friends. (: I'm alright with it, just took some time to get over it.

Sorry, this isn't a very good description for my first love, but I just don't want to go into it.

F.MY.LIFE.

Peace, love, and follow the spiders.

Day 2

 Sorry to update with another blog today, but I have to keep up with the 30 day challenge, right!!!??!?! lol. So, after all that French drama this morning, we have 

DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!!!

 ~BADADDADADADADDAADADADADA~

"Meaning behind your blog name"

So, many of you who know me, know of me, or if you could manage to get a quick look at either my dorm room, or bedroom will know that I'm just a tad bit obsessed with Harry Potter. (: And, like all of you who know me where probably thinking, I wanted to somehow incorporate Harry Potter into it somehow. 

HOWEVER!

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There's this girl Heather....

  ...who gives me this look every time I mention Harry Potter. xD And just encase she decided to read my blog, I wanted to let her know that I named it in-spite of her. xD

And so, that's where I came up with the decision for "Just be happy the title isn't Harry Potter related" ^3^

P.S. Harry Potter rules. <3

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. <3

Je ne comprende pas!!!!!!

Soo...as many of you are aware, I'm taking french this term. And, as I'm sure you've heard

            I SUCK AT FRENCH!!!!!!!!!!

And I just got my last chapter test back and it's horrible. This whole term is just sucking so far. x.x I don't know why I try to take such hard freaking classes! And I have to keep my grades up in order to become an RA next year. At this rate, I might as well drop out of school.... 

But I'll never do that. I have little to no respect for people who don't apply themselves when things get difficult. 

So, I emailed my French professor and explained that I have been trying to change my study habits, but I just didn't do it soon enough to do well in the test- and I'm trying to set up a time to meet with her to get her to help me.

The sucky thing is that, looking over this test,  it's not like there's one particular place that I'm struggling in. It's a little bit of everything. The vocab I understand pretty well, and when she asks a question, or says something that we're supposed to respond to, I can normally understand it pretty well. It's just that there's this girl in my class who's really really good at it, and before I can completely understand what she's asking, the girl is already answering the question! She's very nice, so I'm not mad at her for understanding it. I'm glad that she does, it's just frustrating. And the teacher is really really  nice, and I really do enjoy the class itself and most of the people in the class- it's just that the material isn't clicking very well. Like...at all actully. 

I understood Japanese just fine! And I had to learn a whole new alphabet with Japanese!!!!!!  And when I learned Sign in 6th grade, I understood most of it.

IT.

IS.

JUST.

SO.

FRUSTRATING.

Ug, but I'll just keep trying till I figure something out. I'm not going to get anything lower than a B in either of my hard classes. It's just not in the stars for me. 

 Grrr.... 

Peace, love, and follow the spiders. <3

Day 1

Well, for those of you who just randomly stumbled upon my blog thingy, or those of you who actually know me and want to see the inner workings of my mind, you have come to the right place! (: But first, my friend Kara (you'll hear about her a lot, I'm sure.) basically told me that I am being forced to create this blog to "get out some of my anger". Because- hint number one to who I am- apparently I have anger problems. Who knew? xD So, that's one reason for this. Sort of like an online diary type thing. But for the sake of people's sanity and privacy, I wont use anyone's real name if I'm crapping about them.

But yes! I'm doing a 30 day blog thing, because Kara also said that she wanted me to do that. lol. So...here's day one. (:

"Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts"

 Well! Here's me last summer in my backyard. (: So, you wanna know 15 things about me, do ya? lol. Well, you might want to take that back after you find out more about me~ jkjkjk. I'm not that crazy...>.>...

1) I want to be a high school history teacher when I grow up.

2) My brother is the most important person in my life. I don't know what I'd do without him. D:

3) I'm sort of like a bear. I'm big and cuddly sometimes. But when you attack someone I hold dear, the claws come out. (Hence the 'anger issues'. xD)

4) I do not drink, smoke, or do anything illegal. I'm a little bit different in that way, because I'm not a normal college student. I'm honestly here just to learn and become a better me.

5) I WILL travel the world. Nothing is going to stop me. I think the only way to kill off stereotypes and racism etc. is to travel and experience what the other cultures are all about! You can't have a good opinion about something until you know enough about it.

6) I am disgustingly obsessed with Harry Potter and anything Disney. You'll learn that pretty quick. xD

7) I like to cook sometimes! But, I'm not necessarily good at it. xD

8) I was on prom court my senior year! Which was extremely shocking to me. lol. I knew I was well-liked, but not enough to be considered "Prom Queen" material!

9) I am a HUGE geek. Pretty much all things that fall under that category, are who I am.

10) I sleep with my dog stuffed animal Purdy every night. I have taken her to every country, and every event (camping, girl scouts, programs) that I've ever been to since I got her when I was like...9. lol

11) I have crazy OCD about things. If it's not straight, I'll fix it till it is. I wash my hands and brush my teeth 100's of times a day. And I always do weird little "rituals" you might call them. Just weird things that I have to do to stay sane.

12) I always choose the things people don't like. The "weird" things, or the "deformed" things. Like weird pets, deformed ginger bread cookies, and all sorts of things like that. Like the dogs with 3 legs, or the cats with a missing eye. I love it. Somehow I always manege to find the beauty in "not normal" things. (:

13) I don't have the "perfect" body or anything, but I'm pretty comfortable with my body! I don't like to show off my chest like some people I know (Malia. lol). And I don't wear much makeup, if I ever do. I TRY to do some things with my hair, but normally it just ends up kind of...there. xD But yeah! lol

14) I've been in band for 8 years of my whole effing life. x.x I play flute..pretty well? I don't know. I'm not good, but I don't suck. lol. And I'm TRYING to teach myself piano, but it's not really working out too well. xD And I'm sort of a make-shift theatre kid. lol

15) Well, you guys will probably want to know my name and stuff? xD Savin' the best for last. My name is Katria Hiersche and I'm 19 years old. (: I'm an education major right now at Western Oregon University, but I'm going to change to a History major with an American Sign Language minor. lol. Hmm....yeah! Just ask me stuff. See you guys tomorrow with my next update!!

Peace, love, and follow the spiders~ <3